Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Is it Friday yet?

Nope, definitely not.

This week makes me want to scream. It's been frustrating, annoying and very stressful. It doesn't help that I'm run down, overtired and feel like I'm on pins and needles every second of every day. 

And of course, I was pretty hungover this morning. Last night was a total blast though, so it was definitely worth it.

Work has been crazy lately, but usually I'm able to stay positive and tackle it head on with a smile on my face. But this week is different. It's like I'm completely checked out and I can't figure out why. 

I feel like I'm having a mini quarter-life crisis—much like I've had the last few winters. For a couple of weeks at the end of January/beginning of February,  I get really antsy. It's like I want to escape my life. I start questioning everything and all of a sudden I become obsessed with traveling and getting away. Last year I was determined to move to South Carolina or Florida...after I went on a 6-week trip to Australia and New Zealand, of course. And this year, I desperately want to move back to Ireland, vacation in Greece and spend a few weeks in Italy. (Apparently money doesn't factor into my daydreams.)

I feel really restless. Why? I have no idea. But I can't stop wondering about my life. Do I love my job? Am I good at my career? Do I want to move? Do I want to go to grad school? Could I actually make it on my own somewhere else? Would I miss Chicago? What do I want? Am I happy?

It's all been bugging me this week. And while I do question things sometimes, it's never as bad as this. If it's anything like the last few years, I know it will pass in a couple weeks. But right now, it's driving me crazy. 

I'm sure I'll be back to my perky, enthusiastic self in a few days.  In the mean time, I'll just load up on Starbucks and M&Ms and keep looking at pictures of Aruba (I can't wait!).


Cheryl said...

I think it's better to not sit there and ask yourself so many questions. It just leads to worry. The way I see it is, if you want to move then move. It's never too late to go back home

Ally said...

Not to go to deep into your issue, but have you ever heard of Seasonal Affective Disorder? It is much more common than people think - especially for those of us in dreary northern climates with little sun during this time. Some people take antidepressants to get through it, but there are plenty of studies showing that extra B vitamins and Omega 3's can also have a positive effect on your mood.

Anyways, I just wanted to share that info :) I too get restless and impatient this time of year, and for me I know its due to the cold/lack of sun.

Megkathleen said...

For me I always get this antsy around this time because I get really used to working short weeks with all the vacation days in Dec. and Nov. and I feel like the next day off is never going to get here. Plus there's something about the dreary weather that makes it hard to focus and be productive and happy.

zentiment said...

I'm so sorry about what you're feeling. I've been going through something similar. Ally is right about the Seasonal Affective Disorder though. So, I wouldn't make any drastic decisions quite yet. Winter effects me BAD, and I live in California. lol. I can only imagine what it's like over there. Things will get better!